Dangerous Concert of Grief

384236DF-8BC9-4B29-943F-904487B02123Sometimes grief is loud and obnoxious like a toddler with a new toy that makes noise. And yet sometimes grief builds up slowly and often it is with just a silent note. 

There are careless conversations

A diagnosis is looming 

Friendships are fading…. 

Jealousy is budding 

It feels like children are scheming 

Pride prevails 

Sin is shaming 

Notes of hurt underneath an outwardly calm life erupt in a private orchestra concert inside your head. Hurt dances daily to the beat of twirling offenses.

Here lays the danger – the concert of pain is repeating inside your soul and no one knows it is playing. Calling to “Alexadoesn’t turn it off. The record just keeps spinning and spinning, getting louder with each new song of tears. 

When our grief is public and demands attention, it is the new hit song on the radio and everyone is listening and singing along with you. But as the new hit fades from attention and when life strikes in small venomous bites, the song is unheard till disaster creates a new beat. Grief builds up and we often react negatively so others will take notice and just listen to our private dance of pain. 

But there is another way – there is One who knows the lyrics your heart is singing and He is waiting for you to allow Him to choreograph a new song in your soul. Tell Him all the words to your secret lullaby; belt them out in the shower and to the heavens, freeing your lungs to share the sorrow with the One who heals. 

“I waited patiently for the LORD; he inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the LORD.” Psalm 40:1-3

 

 

 

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4 thoughts on “Dangerous Concert of Grief

  1. Thank you! As I reach the 4 month mark of my mom’s passing, I feel everyone is expecting me to let it go. I don’t talk about her, be sad or have any other emotions. Move on with your kids & grandkids. My face might be smiling but inside I have a deep whole. My tears are blinked back and I feel as if I’m on an island, all alone. I know God is holding me together.

  2. What a beautiful metaphor for grief! When it’s a hit song, it is a lot easier. As the months and years go by and you’re left alone with it, that’s the forbidding, soul-wrenching part. And God is the only One who could do the choreography. Thank you, Kasey, for talking about such hard things and blessing us all.

    1. So good to hear from you! I think of you often and the impact you made on my kids lives! I just checked out your new site and I am so excited for you! I actually was telling some friends about it with younger kids! I hope all is well with you and your family!

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