Full and Fat

I don’t need God. I have so insulated my life that at any given time, I am pretty self-reliant. I know in my head that I need Him, that life is not complete without Him, but there are days that I hardly give Him attention after my Bible readings are finished.

If I am hungry, I get something to eat.

If I am cold, I grab the nearest blanket or turn up my heated mattress warmer.

If I have a headache, I reach for the aspirin.

If I am thirsty, I grab a Diet Dr. Pepper.

If I am lonely, I text a friend.

If I am tired, I turn off all the lights and take a nap.

When I have a need, I find a way to fulfill it.

I have been in a place that I needed Him to make it through the next minute but I am not there right now. Honestly, most days I just plow through and don’t necessarily need Him.

Something radical must be done. I don’t like living this way. I know better.

Tomorrow, I am embarking on a journey. I am creating a need for Him in my life. I am choosing to do without some things so that I can force myself to need Him.

Let me explain, imagine I cooked Brad the most fabulous of dinners (I know, unbelievable, I told you to use your imagination for goodness sake) picture steak, steamed veggies, potatoes, and a wonderful dessert waiting on him when he walked in the door.  A feast for him of pure deliciousness waiting for him but he didn’t know I was cooking (he is used to this NOT happening) so he grabs some McDonald’s on the way home. He is very full from the yucky McDonald’s but sees the great meal I have made for him and pretends to enjoy. However, no matter how good my meal is(we are still pretending), Brad is just full and has little room for the goodness I have prepared.

This is me!! I am so full from the junk that even when I try to focus on God, I am too full.

This type of living is no longer acceptable to me so I suckered a few friends into doing this with me. Starting tomorrow, we are following Jen Hatmaker’s example from her book 7 and eating seven foods for a month. I can’t even think about next month, it involves clothes, one of my favorite indulgences. You thought I was crabby last month? Just wait till 7 is in full swing.

I am tired of being so full of junk that I miss God.

Are you?

5 thoughts on “Full and Fat

  1. Lord God, forgive me for shunning the wilderness and preferring my self-inflicted slavery to the very things that keep from my source of true joy, peace and freedom! Help us remember the valleys even as I beg not to walk through them…that You may increase as self does decrease. Amen. Deuteronomy 8~
    2 And you shall remember the whole way that the LORD your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep his commandments or not.
    3 And he humbled you and let you hunger and fed you with manna, which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that he might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD.
    4 Your clothing did not wear out on you and your foot did not swell these forty years.
    5 Know then in your heart that, as a man disciplines his son, the LORD your God disciplines you.
    6 So you shall keep the commandments of the LORD your God by walking in his ways and by fearing him.
    7 For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of fountains and springs, flowing out in the valleys and hills,
    8 a land of wheat and barley, of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive trees and honey,
    9 a land in which you will eat bread without scarcity, in which you will lack nothing, a land whose stones are iron, and out of whose hills you can dig copper.
    10 And you shall eat and be full, and you shall bless the LORD your God for the good land he has given you.
    11 “Take care lest you forget the LORD your God by not keeping his commandments and his rules and his statutes, which I command you today,
    12 lest, when you have eaten and are full and have built good houses and live in them,
    13 and when your herds and flocks multiply and your silver and gold is multiplied and all that you have is multiplied,
    14 then your heart be lifted up, and you forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery,
    15 who led you through the great and terrifying wilderness, with its fiery serpents and scorpions and thirsty ground where there was no water, who brought you water out of the flinty rock,
    16 who fed you in the wilderness with manna that your fathers did not know, that he might humble you and test you, to do you good in the end.
    17 Beware lest you say in your heart, ‘My power and the might of my hand have gotten me this wealth.’
    18 You shall remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you power to get wealth, that he may confirm his covenant that he swore to your fathers, as it is this day.
    19 And if you forget the LORD your God and go after other gods and serve them and worship them, I solemnly warn you today that you shall surely perish.
    20 Like the nations that the LORD makes to perish before you, so shall you perish, because you would not obey the voice of the LORD your God.

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