More Than A Feeling

Do you ever get frustrated with your own feelings? I sure do! Often, I have spent time in his word, reading parenting articles on grace for kids, a morning in church worshipping and praising God and within ten minutes I snap at my husband or yell at my kids. I hear myself and think what are you doing? How do you go from being filled with the Spirit to fighting mad over little things? I can so relate to Paul when he says, “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” (Rom. 7)
Mastering your feelings is probably one of the biggest things I struggle with. I don’t want to stuff my feelings and act like they aren’t there but I don’t want to vent wrath on those around me either. What is a girl to do? I have been reading through the bible in 90 days and I am amazed at how David talked to his soul. He often asked questions of himself – why are you downcast, oh my soul? (Ps. 42:5) Or he talks to his heart “Be at rest once more, Oh my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.” (Ps. 116:7) It is a biblical form of self talk. We must learn to talk to our soul – why am I mad about this? Is this really important in the big scheme of things? Am I allowing myself to get worked up over external things? Yes, there is a righteous anger – usually happens when someone else is being trampled by others, not a righteous anger when I am feeling run over. I am to serve others not vice versa yet my anger seems to pop up when others around me aren’t doing what I want. I must say to myself “be at rest, no anger, the Lord has been good to me.”
After we lost Jake, this was a battle I had to win. The mind game can be the most costly of battles. Those victories I won back then must still be repeated daily or I find myself one again bitter or angry over little things. I must learn to talk myself down.
Lamentations 3 says “Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” We have to learn the art of calling to our minds the hope we have in the Lord – not just in the big situations but the small everyday mundane issues we deal with. We have hope in the Lord that His mercy is new for us each morning, even when I blew it the night before with my kids or hubby. That God is faithful even when we are faithless. That God is our portion, meaning He is more than enough for our daily, unremarkable struggles we deal with.
So today, let’s practice saying to ourselves, ‘be at rest, the Lord has been good to you.’

9 thoughts on “More Than A Feeling

  1. So true. The key is to stop and think first. I often just respond immediately. I don’t stop and think, and analyze. If I put this to practice more, I would have the opportunity to “coach” myself in the word.

    Good post!

  2. I think God allows those situations in your life and then gives you these words so you can teach your readers a thing to two, lol. Seriously though, keep blogging. I love reading them and I do learn so much from them. You have such a gift for writing.

  3. LOVE this, Kasey. What a perfect antidote to the things that spill forth from my mouth. I’m definitely bookmarking this for the many reminders I know I’ll need. Maybe I’ll just print it and slip it into the back of my journal.

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