Today is our first day of school. Time flies.
I have one going into first grade and one going into eighth. Can you believe I have an eighth grader? I sure can’t.
I am a mixture of emotions today. I dreaded the 6 am wake up call till I got my first cup of coffee. Then I happily made lunches for Drew and his best buddy Charlie. (Yes, I let Drew have a friend spend the night on the first day of school – I am that kind of mom). I fixed cinnamon rolls and drove them to school.
I came home to walk Jackson to school. We live right across from the school so I asked Jackson if he wanted me to walk him to his class or just across the street. I was trying to feel out what the “kid rules” are going to be for this year. They change constantly. And wouldn’t you know it, the biggest change happened just this morning, causing a mixture of pride and panic. As we were walking into the school, I just automatically grabbed his hand out of habit and broke the cardinal rule of parenting – holding your child’s hand on school property. Sigh.
I guess it hurt just a bit more because Jackson has, up till this moment, been my affectionate and cuddly child who yells out how much he loves me at any given time. This is the kid who didn’t want to go to kindergarden because he would miss me too much. The one who held up our I love you sign with his hand till he couldn’t see me anymore walking to class. The one who sat in my lap when I visited his class.
Things are a changing in the Ewing household! Not only does Jackson not want to hold my hand, but Drew could carry me with his pinkie if needed. He is that big. ( I kid, he might need his whole hand to lift this momma)
I did enjoy walking home and into a quiet house. It has been all summer since I have been home alone. This quiet time eased my heartache just a bit. However, I am still peaking out the window trying to see Jackson at recess. God really gave me a laugh in my quiet time this morning – the first verse was Deut. 23:1 “No one whose testicles are crushed or whole male organ is cut off shall enter the assembly of the Lord.” No issues there, that verse I can obey! If only they all were that easy or didn’t apply to me.
I will tell you that I am on a mission this year while the kids are at school. Y’all have heard this before but now I think I am serious. 🙂 I am going to write a book, really write it. Not just talk about writing, read about writing, or blog about writing but actually write. I am pretty sure I have read at least ten books in the last year about writing, yet I only have a few pages of the book I started last year. Accountability is needed here. I am not so sure why it is hard to sit down and actually write. But it seems like I end up doing everything but writing. I check facebook, clean the bathrooms, put in a load of laundry. I can’t sit still but I am working on it.
One thing that I think will help me is that our women’s minister and I are going to write a bible study for the spring and she is a talented and experienced writer. I think that working with her will give me some much needed guidance in this area. Please be in prayer for us as we get busy on this adventure. I am so excited to work with her and learn all I can from this amazing woman. She graciously leads our women and in her spare time when she is not darting off across the country speaking to women, she writes. She writes well. I still can’t believe she is going to let me be a part of what she is doing. God, and Deb, are gracious.
Ok, peeps. What is one thing you want to accomplish this school year? I can’t wait to hear! Once we hear what everyone is up to, we can all be in prayer for each other and what God has called us to do.
Wow, this post almost turned into a book itself. If only random posts would magically turn into a book?